♥ Monday, December 27, 2010♥

I feel empty inside me .. missing the kallang waves & kicks. I guess i am used to waking up to his movements in the middle of the night.

Here are some last few pics i took with Javier in my tummy...

Week 31 - Marche with Desiree, Liwen & Rain



Week 32 - Citylink with Kx & Ash



Week 32 - Baker's Inn with Steph & Huili



Week 32 - Xmas lunch with Office folks





I'm looking fwd to visit Javier in awhile, he has been smiling in his sleep and i suppose he's happy to be free from all the needles & drips. Hope to catch him awake later.

Aiyiko XOXO

♥ Saturday, December 25, 2010♥

I'm milking nw as i'm typing this post... The past few days felt like a roller coaster ride for both of us. I'm quite thankful that i am almost 70% prepared for bb stuff & packed my hospital bag just the night before i delivered... i still cant get over the fact that i went through labour without Epidural. I guess i will never forget the scene of waterbag explosion , urge of contractions & the first moment i felt Javier sliding out of my birth canal.

In the past all of us were very curious about the pain level.. i would say the most painful stage would be at the urge to push where u will feel tat all the shit in your body are about to EXPLODE out(maybe with epidural you wont feel a thing) , next level of pain would be the stiching followed by engorgement of breast. Today my stiches have sort of recovered, its no longer as sore as the past few days i can walk very normally & my boobs are nt as engorged after the massages. The only discomfort i'm feeling nw are my tired calves...

For emotions, i think i have recovered abit ever since i see Javier's condition getting better. Special thanks to my frenz who came dw specially to visit me.. really felt cheerful after talking to you all. Especially thanks to Ben De (Estee) who brought me her pumps & share advice. You are as good as google & wikipedia... My emotions really kicks in when i visited Javier on the first night.. i saw him being hook up on drips with needles pricking into his tiny fingers that i cant stop tearing. I wished i could take the pain in place of him. Every call from KK NICU freaks me out they really like to scare pple by asking what time i coming they need to update me on the status but refuse to reveal more over the phone.

Day 3 , i was allowed to go home & Hao prep me that our house is in a mess & fridge is exploding... nearly fainted when i saw my kitchen fully loaded with food...cried everynight in my room after everyone is aslp while i pump..i really cant stand the mess & the oil but i know i had no choice... I'm happy enough that my mom in law is cooking me nutrious yummy dishs everyday & i love papaya fish soup. My feelings got better when she went home for an afternoon where i hurried clean up the mess... was really tired but emotionally i felt better after i revived my kitchen... i guess this is why im having tired calves. My mom is takin over today & monday, i guess i will try to have as much rest & stay off my feet if possible.

For now i wont be inviting you all to my house till my confinement is over... hope you gals understand. And also we wont be doing full month celebrations for him till after CNY , perhaps a small one @ 100 days as we were advised by Doctors his immunity level is still weak. I will keep you all posted on Javier's progress via facebook. Update another time.

Aiyiko XOXO

♥ Monday, December 20, 2010♥

Here's my story  - 
6am plus : tummy feels weird.. But cont to make bf for both of us

750am : Visit the toilet as usual before heading out for wk ... mummy saw some blood n pain gettin intense.. Grabbed hospital bag n went dw to flag a cab. Lucky we were ready to go wk at tat time, i only need to remove my contact lens n theres a sonata cab

830am: headed stright to delivery suite , pain gettin worse, lie dw n monitor hb .. Doc says contractions every 3mins n dialated 4 cm  need to admit

9am: wheel in to delivery suit , ate medicine to delay contractions , tried the drip too no use

930am: told nurse i gt v strong shitty feeling cant hold any longer... Took some steriod jabs to help bb lungs stay strong. Doc says hope bb can stay inside for 48 hrs

1000am: non of the medications are wking .. Dilated 8cm .. Everyone start panicking n rush off to get things ready

1130am: started pushing n breathing exercise .. Trying to mimize my groanings ... Doc broke my waterbag n everyone gt splash .. Lol so funny to c everyone expression .. Everytime i gt the wana shit feeling, i squeeze n pushed ...

1154am: finally i see bb javier out n wailing like mad only then i heave a sign of relief ...

1330 pm: stiching completes n had my lunch... I took abt 4 jabs for stiches n no pain killer for birth ...both equally pain might as well dun take

430pm: sent up to ward n rest

615pm : parents n nini went to check javier out in icu .. Hes lookin great :p

Aiyiko XOXO

♥ Sunday, December 19, 2010♥

Yes Jingle Bells is round the corner and I got Ni NI a new wallet to replace his old one..I don't celebrate xmas but i'm using it as excuse to go shopping... Bought myself a BeBe perfume as well as one for my sis in law...I'm still thinking whether to get the coach or kate spade bag before the sale ends for the year :P Need to control my spending.

Well well i guess i can no longer spend too long time on my feet as the nightmare of water retention has started... my comfy slippers are also begining to feel tighter & each step hurts with the extra weight i'm carrying.. neverthless i'm glad Javier is growing & my tummy is finally showing the right size.. got a bit worried when pple keep telling me it's so small.. Now i hope it doesnt grow too big.

Counting down to 3 Jan 11 for the next check up to find out Javier's progress... i;m curious to know how much he weighs now given the 10kg i have put on.. i hope it's not 8 on me and 2 on him...

More pics up another day.. i'm lazy to do anything now.. gona cherish the last few hours of weekend. Nights folks

Aiyiko XOXO

♥ Tuesday, December 07, 2010♥

I'm currently having a very work life balance job which i like very much... Probably it's the low peak period for recruitment @ year end but neverthless business are still coming in.. Good for my commission :P Need to make more money for Javier's milk powder .. hee

Ok so Christmas is round the corner, i have done my Xmas shopping for office gift exchange, gifts for bdae peeps & Ni Ni.. Now it's time to get something for myself while i still can afford to spend.. or rather to reward myself coz i didnt get the laptop during sitex... I'm eyeing on a bag from Kate Spade.. hopefully there's a year end sale going on.. gona check out the store this weekend.. Wish me luck !

Last but not least, i am ending off with this top view pic of Javier in my tummy @ wk 30+... now i can tell my tummy is Sharp.. UR Right Estee...



Ps. I can no longer see my toes :P

Aiyiko XOXO

♥ Saturday, December 04, 2010♥

Week 30 this week and Javier is the size of a lettuce head but i think my tummy still looks small for a 7 .5 months preggy .. hope he is gaining enough weight inside me. I'm due right after cny and i hope he doesnt come out too early. I wana eat pineapple tarts & egg rolls :P

This year 3 of my friends who are first time mummies having boys all gave birth 2 weeks in advanced of their due date. If this is the norm , i guess i probably will see Javier somewhere end Jan . Finger cross he doesnt come out while i am at work , outside or with Hao @ RT or some work event. Ideally, i plan to start my leave from 27 Jan onwards using my current year leave balance & maternity leave after cny so i can spend more time with him.

Now i'm cherishing the last 2 months of Javier's waves, kicks & fluttering inside my tummy.. i know i gona miss this feeling real soon. Have recorded all the diff types of his movements on video so i can revisit them anytime.

Pressure on tummy is getting heavier & tighter...i hope i can last for another 7 weeks to carry him to full term...

Aiyiko XOXO