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♥ Friday, May 05, 2006♥

I can feel my heart beating vv fast trying to jump out of my rib cage.. I wonder how many times in my life have i felt this way... probably more than what i could count on my fingers + toes.. i guess as i grow older, i become afraid of everything...Things that gave me the jitters in the past includes

- Rough dentist fr shss
- Horrible nurses who gave us injections during our sec sch days (i bet they are trainees.. anyhow poke)
- Oral exams ( i gt tongue tied & breathless)
- O'levels
- Micro/Macro economics & stats exams
- Presentations
- When my parents went back & left me alone in Brisbane, i was stayin alone for the first week
- Walking home alone at night in oz
- Tryin to avoid the path of stray dogs
- Driving tests
- First roller coaster rides
- First formal interview

i really hate the huanting feeling of the terror... i noe its nt a big deal.. its as easy as ABC & peanuts to me on normal days.. BUT as the day draw nearer, i begin to lack confidence.. the more cautious i am the more mistakes i make.. dammed.. why cant i jus relax and do as per normal.. Anywei i gona keep my fingers cross.. Pray Hard.. and holy monly hope i can make it..

Anywei no new pics to post.. so post myself haha wearing the protective googles.. it gives me some confidence when i wear them like a clever scientist.. haha kk i know its lame



Aiyiko XOXO